Ack! Need to Work Harder…

by Anxious M on April 2, 2010

I haven’t posted anything in the past month. I kind of fell of the wagon in March and let myself go – no adherence to regular CBT exercises, lying to my therapist and girlfriend about what I’ve been doing, and letting myself go physically – a deadly recipe for my mental state.

So I’m getting back on the wagon today, starting with heading to Staples to get supplies to make a poster for myself. I’m going to make a list of basic principles and rules that I need to be reminded of every day to keep myself on track and progressing in life.

I’m thinking about things like:

1) Take more chances

2) Failure is okay

3) Pick up the f*cking phone and call someone.

4) Worrying is a waste of time

5) To be successful, you must push yourself

6) What if you did leave the toaster oven plugged in?

7) Successful people are always willing to do what the other guy is afraid to do

No, this won’t fix everything that’s wrong in my life, but it’s a start.

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Lack of Sleep Makes Me F*cking Crazy

February 27, 2010

I am a firm believer in the concept of a mind-body link, because when my body is f*cked, my mind falls apart completely.
I’m beginning to learn that a lack of rest is among the biggest drivers of my anxiety symptoms. When I’m tired, I can’t fight my OCD urges and I become depressed, anxious, and [...]

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I Hate You Money

February 24, 2010

I loved money back in the days when I had a lot of it. Now that my savings are slowly dwindling down due to me being under-employed and eating out way too much, I’m starting to get really f*cking nervous.
I’ve slowly gotten more aggressive in my job hunt, but I worry that I’m not cut [...]

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CBT Exercise of the Day – POPCORN!

February 17, 2010

I’ve been slacking on discussing my CBT exercises lately, so I wanted to tell you about another one I’ve been working on.
Okay, I love popcorn. Love is a strong word, but so is my passion for popcorn. There are few snacks I enjoy more than hot, salty, freshly-popped-in-oil popcorn. I want nothing to do with [...]

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Chynna Phillips: Drug Problem or Anxiety Problem?

February 17, 2010

See? Even hot people like Chynna Phillips have mental-health problems!
According to her publicist, Chynna has checked herself into an undisclosed rehab center to deal with anxiety problems.
Hmmm, has Chynna been in Kinko’s?
Second thought, this sounds more like a drug problem than an anxiety problem. Who goes to rehab for anxiety unless they’re abusing drugs or [...]

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Stuff That Makes Me Anxious – People Seeing My Music Collection

February 17, 2010

Okay okay, I haven’t done a Stuff That Makes Me Anxious post in a while, so it’s time for a new one.
So what besides canceling print jobs and going to Kinko’s?

PEOPLE SEEING MY MUSIC COLLECTION!
Seriously man, I absolutely f*cking love music. But I get nervous as hell if I think someone’s going to start poking [...]

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Making the Dreaded Job Phone Call – Victory?

February 16, 2010

So today was a pretty big day for me – I actually got on the phone and make a call about a job. I’m pretty proud of myself. I’m extremely self-conscious about the sound of my voice, and the age of email and Facebook has made it easy for me to avoid talking on the [...]

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